Silence is Quiet Despair

kraizey

Ipromote ko daw...

2nd floor One beverly place condominium Anapolis Street, Greenhills, San Juan

just got my flier today.... and pauline yeokyung was smiling so brightly... "call him, he inisist on giving this to you."

then I texted, "oh I promise to go there..."

He replied I just wanted to give you my new flyer...

I remembered how I was thrilled at sad when we were connected once more.

He said "she wore contact lenses now because I told her so.."

Yohan and I had been that close.. yeah, he was even playing his flute on my debu, we shared secrets together, and we even share our birthday. He is well known in our house and my family accepts him well, although, i recalled how I wish I had fallen for him instead..

I realize I must go and be free.. Hmm...

so I asked my boyfriend to set me free.. "please tell me you don't love me..."

he would not reply..

but he never wanted to let go, he never want me seeing other guys..

then now I do think if only I had fallen with yohan and not the other guy...

but what can I do I love him and I still can't let go, even if I want to he is still holding me tight.

yukitenshi

Hakozume no Mokushi, meet world.

World, meet Hakozume no Mokushi.

I think you've been introduced to each other before, but meeh.

http://blog.yukitenshi.net

What now bitches.

♥

In the past, you've had to contact me to set your own custom domain. This is no longer the case - I've added a new page in the control panel (Settings > Set Custom Domain) which lets you set your own domain name. I've updated the documentation page with instructions on how to set-up your Tabulas to use a domain name.

yukitenshi

UGH. GTFO my f-list. Dammit dammit dammit. I need a new layout so I wouldn't have to deal with this crap... and how exactly I would accomplish it, is all to myself. Yeah so I'm blabbing, but what do you care, srlsy.

Oh, new accounts, new accounts. Add me up if you want, but there's no assurance that I'll add you back. I'm serious.

Plurk: plurk.com/kyouki
MSN: yukichuu@live.com

There.

Dammit if you write, could you please stick to one language? And a language you're very familiar with, not something you can barely use properly? English grammar, motherfucker, do you know it?

yukitenshi

(...you know...)

All that crap aside, I'd just like to say sorry for not visiting my links/f-list, I've just been that fucked up. Regardless, here are just some sites/accounts that you can visit/add/stalk me with:

Multiply: 「disorderHEAVEN」 - chantalnanoda.multiply.com
MySpace: myspace.com/yukichuu
Facebook: e-mail used - spammage[at]black-cherrie.org
Friendster: friendster.com/chantalette
Plurk (never on, hence the 0.00 karma, though I just wanted to add): yukichuu

New Y!M ID: xx_yukichuu
MSN: yukitenshi_kanna@hotmail.com (I might be changing this in a while, I'll keep you posted)

I need people to talk to me and maybe just be, you know, friends, but with the last sentence of my Colorgenics profile, I can't say I'm sure about that.

Regardless, I do have some things to smile about. Like the fact that my aunt's Christmas present for my is my Heresy fanclub membership, and some time this week I'll be receiving two more Neo Genesis magazines featuring, of course, Gazette.

mayo

We had a 3 days practice for our capping, pinning and candle lighting ceremony. It was last Nov. 4-6, at 1-5 pm usually. Our first day of class was last Nov. 6 but our subjects are only general subjects which includes english, religion, p.e and history. For history, we're taking Rizal and for english, it's about Speech this time, everything about communication. I was very impressed in our professor in English because he's a newscaster/radio announcer before but now, he's a professor and to think that he's an alumni of CEU. Anyway, in our history, he's a new professor to me but I often see him around in school last semester, my first impression to him? He's like a lawyer! The way he walks and talks, and his clothes. So I finally meet him and everything he talks about is LAW. I told the story to my mom and she thinks that maybe he's a graduate of Law but didn't passed the Bar Exam so now, he's teaching Rizal and other subjects related to Law or social studies. We actually didn't meet all of our professors this week because as they say, we're only section 2F so we are not prioritized! What a logic?! We're also paying here. But I was so happy that our professor in NCM-101 A was our professor last semester in CHN (Community Health Nursing). I reallly, really like him a lot. I like the way he teaches us and the class never got bored of him.

I was surprised to know that from our batch, we lost around 84-87 students of Nursing, most of them failed in Anatomy and Physiology so they are now irregular in section G and some of them went to another school. So sad.

About this capping, etc. Most of my classmates were very excited about this on Nov. 14 but I don't feel any excitement, for me, it's just a regular graduation. If I would be the Dean in our school, I will make it next year just before we become juniors. It's because of our subject which is Microbiology & Parasitology, it's still a threat to us just like Anatomy. For sure, there will be again failing students. Maybe if I finished these two subjects, maybe I can feel excitement and joy in our Capping, passing our Anatomy subject isn't enough for me or for my ego to be satisfied.

I have this new crush, I dunno but it's just a crush since I saw him last semester, he's my type. He looks like the celebrity, Jake Cuenca. Yeah. But every now and then, I keep on seeing him accidentally. We got the same I.D lace which makes him look like a gay like what my classmates told me last semester. He's usually alone whenever we see each other and I'm usually with other people. The first time I saw him was during our Anatomy lab, outside the room, our section was sitting outside where there's a huge table and a lot of chairs. He just asked me if the chair in front of me is vacant, I said no because my classmate is using it, he/she just went to the comfort room, and then the paper I am holding just drop or flew on the floor, the weird thing is, there's no air actually or there's nothing that would make it drop. And another weird thing is, it dropped in front of him. Without saying anything, he gave it back to me. What a kind person he is. Since that day, as in everyday I always see him. I thought that he's not a nursing student because of his unform and during that time, I didn't noticed his I.D. lace.

I think I already told this story from my previous posts, to cut the story short, he's the host of our Capping & Pinning this Nov. 14. Since he is the host of the program, I saw him again during our 3 days practice at Don Bosco church at Makati. Oh my god. His voice is so damn HOT! plus points! After the practice, I realized that I shouldn't see him anymore or we shouldn't meet accidentally just because it's not the right time to be like this. I've saw his friendster account and he's single and yeah, he's prioritizing his studies right now just like me! hahaha.. The last time I saw him was so kilig! I came from NAL and then as I walk through the hallway, he's there in a sideview image, I look the other way and when I passed beside him, he suddenly walked beside me! XD

His name is the title of this post but you turn it the other way around. Plus his surname, Dionisio. Damn, everytime he's not around, I'm turning so crazy and I already miss him. Sometimes, I'm thinking, what if our everyday meetings are not accidentally? What if he also likes me or something the way I feel for him. I wish this feeling will stay just a Crush. We're both not ready.

By the way, we don't have classes tomorrow! Yahoo! Maybe I can upload my next layout, hopefully.

This entry contained scripting, which has been removed for your safety. Click here to see the entry in its entirety.

yukitenshi

I have awesome stalking powers. Seriously I do. It kinda breaks my heart sometimes because I find things that people I know probably wouldn't want me to find out. After all, it is the internet, they can do whatever the hell they want with it.

Thing is, I stopped thinking of the internet that way when I turned 13. Not kidding, man.

Also, I wanna look like a guy. Badass outfit yesterday was badass. Too bad I didn't take a picture.

How about one of me as a butler?

Yeah.

Too many things happened. I need to take a shower in a few seconds.

Maybe I should make an internet alter-ego as well, who knows. Let's see, what name should I use? Probably Gazette-related, like Reila or Chizuru or Linda or something... or wait, did Ruki say the girl's name in Regret? Hmmm... Cassis? Or something to do with Dio~distra --

OH SHIT MIKARU IS THE PERFECT NAME.

I shall nao go as Mikaru because the name is awesome.

Or Zeroth. The Zeroth law of Thermodynamics is way amazing. Oooh, ０ス is awesome.