Okay.. Today is absolutely the most fabolous day of my life! Today is our graduation ceremony. I just graduated from high school and my lil bro graduated from elementary. I'm not trying to arrogant or egoistic or anything, but the both of us graduated at the top of our class. I'm so proud of myself and bro for that. And for the first time in my life, my father gave me a thumbs-up! For the first freakin time in the 16 years of my life! He gave me a thumbs-up! I know... i know.. It's quite lowly and idiotic. But if you're in my situation wherein you never get appreciated for what you do, a thumbs-up can do wonderful things. Graduation ceremonies are happy but in the end, mostly everyone ends up crying. I, for one, cried. In our case here in my town, colleges are hard to find. We gotta travel to another place for a good college. That means me and my classmates (we've been classmates for 8 years!) will be saying goodbye. There is also a 10% chance of ever seeing each other again because we'll be taking different courses in different schools. That means different schedules. It's hard for my part since I'll be the farthest of them all. I don't care though, I didn't have any regrets when I shared my life with them. Teachers were crying too but in a subtle way. It's quite moving actually, to ever realize that teachers WILL miss you. They cried... we cried... The only people who didn't cry were the outsiders who came to watch the ceremony. Up to this moment, I still cannot believe that I had graduated from high school. It seems like yesterday that I entered the portals of secondary school. Now here I am, a graduate and a candidate for college. For me, that is a big step. I was never the risk taker, but here I am taking the biggest risk. In 3 weeks time, (yes... 3 weeks coz most of my vacation will be spent enrolling, checking out boarding houses and many more), I'll be leaving my family, friends and home. Up to now, I can't believe that me and my family are willing to sacrifice our time together just so I could get a high quality education. If that isn't love... what is?
Currently listening to: nothing!
Currently feeling: pleased
Posted by LaZy_MaShImArU on April 2, 2006 at 09:55 PM | Leave a word...

 If Thou Must Love ME

If thou must love me, let it be for nought
Except for love's sake only. Do not say
"I love her for her smile her look her way
Of speaking gently, for a trick of thought
That falls in well with mine, and certes brought
A sense of ease on such a day"
For these things in themselves, Beloved, may
Be changed, or change for thee, and love, so wrought,
May be unwrought so. Neither love me for
Thine own dear pity's wiping my cheek dry,
A creature might forget to weep, who bore
Thy comfort long, and lose thy love thereby!
But love me for love's sake, that evermore
Thou may'st love on, through love's eternity.

 

This poem by Elizabeth Barrett-Browning speaks of true love. She asked from her husband not to look at her physical appearances for it will only be temporary at youth and would soon disappear by the coming of the age of us mortals.

Love should never be based on physical appearance but on what's inside the person. Love should never be based also on the sexual intention of a person but on the need to love and be loved back. For me the true meaning love will be based for love's sake and love's sake only.

Currently watching: Duck Tales
Currently feeling: nothing
Posted by LaZy_MaShImArU on January 6, 2006 at 11:20 AM | Leave a word...

In this world, there are happy endings and sad endings. In this life, there are lovers, soulmates, family and friends. The friend part may come as 3 in 1 package, friend/lover/soulmate, not that's a nice love story right? But what if your story goes the other way? What if, it's not a happy ending but a sad one? What if you never got together and be a happily ever after couple?

Those questions will always be asked when you go to love, that's a risk you have to take. In everything there will be advantages and disadvantages, good things and consequences. But why take the risk? That answer is quite simple, if we took the risk we don't have to face the BIG question in the later of our life: "What if I took the risk, will my life be this miserable?" And we don't have to look at the face of regret if we took the risk.

There WILL BE/ARE times that you experience/experienced hurts in love for family, friends and everybody. Just like a VERY famous motto something.. "Love Like You've never been Hurt" See? Try to think that you may lose at one battle but you didn't lose the war yet.

Currently listening to: PArt of your world by Jessica SImpson
Currently feeling: satisfied
Posted by LaZy_MaShImArU on January 6, 2006 at 10:54 AM | Leave a word...

OBVIOUS


Yeah, ooooh...
We started as friends
But something happened inside me
Now I'm reading into everything
But there's no sign you hear the lightning, baby
You don't ever notice me turning on my charm
Or wonder why I'm always where you are
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
I've heard you talk about
(Heard you talk about)
How you want someone just like me
But everytime I ask you out
(Time I ask you out)
We never move pass friendly, no no
And you don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
Yeah...
You are my very first thought in the morning
And my last at nightfall
You are the love that came without warning
I need you, I want you to know
I've made it obvious
So finally I'll sing it
(I've crushed on you so long)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
And sing it until the day you're holding me
I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong
I more then adore you but since you never seem to see
But you never seem to see
I'll say it in this love song

 

You know...in this life...we find friends and we find love in them but in the end it still hurts to think that you'll just be friends forever when you want to be lovers for life..kasi akala nyo dalawa...friends lng kayo... 

Currently listening to: Obvious by Westlife
Currently feeling: blank
Posted by LaZy_MaShImArU on January 6, 2006 at 10:42 AM | Leave a word...

You got that title right, balik sa gunbound. remember my last entry? the one below this? Well, that same guy is playing gunbound too and we kinda had a battle thingy going on last night. And i was so conscious on my actions on that day that i ended up missing my shots and him winnning... 12 TIMES!!!! ARGH!!! I was so embarrassed coz its not like me to miss like that and lose like that, I do take pride in being an accurate shooter... hahay...buhay ko...

Right now, I'm gonna start my thesis coz, i dont want anything bad to happen on this kind of project coz that's where my grades gonna get.. hahay...well..c ya! gotta go! ^_^ 

Currently watching: BAby Looney Tunes
Currently feeling: embarrassed
Posted by LaZy_MaShImArU on December 30, 2005 at 08:03 AM | Leave a word...
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